Posts Tagged ‘current

23
Nov
09

Flamenca

And her arms snake
through the air
like the curling smoke
gently rising off
the tip of the cigarette
laying in a plastic
black ash tray

She paints the melody
in diaphanous  air
through the tips
of her fingers
languid and watery

The rhythm pulses
with her steady
heartbeat
feet declaring
the passage of time

Body throbbing
with the music
possessed to move
with the vigorous
Sound

Dance
united, one
with the sound
Dancer and music
are not separate
but flow connected
as damp newborn
Spring pours itself
into naked Summer.

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22
Nov
09

Rest

Such a whirlwind
Sucks a mind from
Its beloved home.
A whirlwind of chaos
The world spinning
Too fast for anyone
To catch up to it
Fully.

Longing for peace
Longing for home
Of Love,
Of Harmony,
Both of which
This dervish spinning world
Feels devoid of
During a mundane day.

Give me late evening
Give me bed
Give me Love
That makes all the chaos
Dissolve behind the mountains
As the sun crawls toward
The next dawn.

I would live,
Hibernate forever
A sleeping bear,
In the peace of a night
Full of Love.

06
Nov
09

The Last Sunshine

The sun has faded
too quickly.
The bright light
evaporates into murkiness.
The last good day
of beautiful,
burning rays
on my sun-thirsty
skin.

This body will be dehydrated
at least till April.

Parched and stuck
till I can bare
my polka-dotted arms again
and free my stifled toes
from strangling socks.

A blanket of cold gray and snow
looms as the next sunrise
crawls over the mountain peaks

Naked with sunshine
is best.

23
Oct
09

Questioning it all over a cookie.

So I know that I will not be completely gluten free until I change two of my meds, which is going to take me about 2 months.  I wish this were not the way it was, but money and the fact that I need to keep on both of them completely steady without a break, so really no way of just going off them.  I have one doctor’s appt. scheduled and I need to make the other one soon so I am on top of this.

Yesterday I decided to have a cookie from the cupboard….chips ahoy….of course it had gluten.  And I wondered, “Is this going to make me feel funny or bad?”  It did not, but I have to remember that I will not begin to feel good till it is all out, which includes the gluten in the pills. 

If 1/8th of a teaspoon of gluten can cause a reaction then that much is easily in one or two of these pills, which I take a total of 7 of each day.  This is kind of discouraging.  I want to be where I am feeling better as a result of my hard work eating and cooking gluten free, not just doing it for no reason till my body actually can be free of it.   But I don’t really want to go back to how I was.  I had such a hard time with this the first time, and now I feel truly determined, but I feel its a bit useless. 

So feeling a bit set back today, and knowing a bit better how much will power this will truly take from me to be a reality in my life.   Will I even feel better once it is all out of me? I guess there are no guarantees with anything, but I at least can try this myself, and control it.  So here is to a gluten free tomorrow….I hope.

10
Sep
09

Clash

The day
to the night.
Dark crystal.
And then
the clear.

So the
poor bird,
dead
lies on
the hot
sidewalk

She walks
her dog
slowly,
staring
down the
gray sky

My cactus
keeps growing
higher
for three
years,
I’ve kept
it alive,
somehow

So obvious,
this whole
poem.

Unimportant,
as words are
to death
and life

And yet,
I write.
Still

09
Sep
09

Smeared

Smeared
and messy

In pieces and
broken

My body
my mind
Blurred
Any hurt
Piled on to
Causes puddles
of black

Find the missing
parts

Pick up my
life

Wipe away
the smears
somehow

-2007

09
Sep
09

Air forms

The fresh sun filters

through the tiny holes
in the blinds

The new air glides

through the screen
onto my neck

Your soft body
radiates warmth
and keeps me calm

Your beautiful head
on my soft pillow

Your breath rises
and falls
a steady tide

such bliss

I will lie here
half awake

for as long as I can.
-2003